Mama

I'm all to blame for the sins that I've cause.

I'm all to blame for the unhappiness between us.

I'm all to be blame for causing tears in your eyes.

I'm everything but your filial son.

Everything happened so quickly, I was mortified.

More terrified of your reaction towards this wrong doing of mine.

The way you looked at me, it's all different now.

Looking at the mirror, I could barely see my very own reflection.

You screamed at me, you scolded me, it was all deserving. 

After everything you gave me, I returned it in a form of Shame.

I was heartless and cruel to dismiss your feelings from deep inside.

Behind all this, you were still there for me.

I called for you, I kneel on my kness holding your hand oh so dear.

Time paused as your words came to me.

"The smartest person in the world is one who plans for his death."

Thinking of all the 'What If's" it made me ponder.

You begged me to change, for a better person, for a better son.

You gave me time so I could prove to you I'm worthy of your words.

Giving up everything, I really would, just to see your face lighten up again.

I want to make you proud, just to be somebody in the hereafter.

I lifted my knees and we hugged so tight like it was our very first time.

We shed tears as you reminded me of how I was your little boy under your greatest possession.

Unable to speak, I was overcome by tears when you told me "I'll always love you."

A few times I replied "I love you Mama." as I really meant it at the very point of time.

Behind all this mess I've created, I've seen a blessing in disguise.

I realised and it clearly made sense to me now; God had wanted us to be closer, even closer than before.

I love both my parents, I love my 3 beautiful sisters and most of all I love my FAMILY.

I couldn't ask for anything else but Happiness; for you I will.

With Love, Your son.

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